I haven’t gone into the specifics of my mother’s illness and am sorry for not updating about it all sooner. The truth is that, there is nothing to report. Her tests have all come back as inconclusive.
I know that I should be concentrating on the fact that she is well now and I am by no means ungrateful. Thing is that I am still grappling with this absurd idea that 4 specialist doctors just don’t know what she had/has and cannot explain what happened. The histopathology said most likely wall of an abscess but no bacteria were cultured after 6 weeks. The head of Infectious Diseases doesn’t know what it is.
Yes, we are all happy alhamdulillah that she is well. She is not in any pain and her breathing alhamdulillah is all good. She has stopped coughing.
But.
What was it? What is it? Will it come back? How did it happen. Why did it happen? I really hate not having the answers. My mother is thankful, so very thankful that it’s all over – that nothing was found, that she is still here with us, that she can breathe without effort. I do not know why that isn’t enough for me. It should be, of course it should be. I am very thankful it’s all over, I am so blessed to know that she is ok and that she is here with us, that she can breathe without effort.
But.
What was it? What is it? Will it come back. How did it happen? Why did it happen?
salaams,
Shame i fully understand where u coming from..Mashalla its good that Your mom is okay and Inshalla with Allahs will she will stay that way…
Being her child of course u wonder and have a little fear and it does not mean you not thankful …
We all are and will keep making dua that inshalla she stays well.
Sorry tasmiya i am not very good with stuff like..hope u feel a bit better after reading this…
Things like this makes u realize what is more important and other little issues that we as humans tend to duel over does not matter…
Oh Tasmiya *hugs*
I understand what you’re going through because I went the same with my siblings just two years ago. They got well and the doctors still can’t figure out what was wrong.
May Allah grant you strength in this time. Try to focus more on the positive though its natural to ponder over what why and where. But maybe it was something undiagnosed and went away itself. Like a repressed flu or some other common ailment can often have strange dangerous symptoms but then they go away themselves.
Just a thought, for I am no doctor, but let your mind rest.
AlHamdulLilah and wishing the best to your mama and you.
Thank God, she is fine.
Some things we never find out. When my daughter was 8 days old she vomited blood. She is 11 years old and we still don’t know why that happened.
I remember your mother in my prayers. Just thought I’d tell you. God is merciful.
Fehmida – thanks for that.
Specs – I know that my mind needs to rest on this and inshaAllah in time, I am hoping that happens.
Achelois – thank you. Yes. Thank God she is fine. Thank you for remembering my mother in your duas.