GAAH! Am so busy. Gym this morning, then playdate with 3 year old’s best friend. I am cooking for tonight and tomorrow night. There is the exciting school pickup to do and I need to make some food for the boys to eat in the car because they are always famished when I pick them up. A lot of yelling to do and then a quick drop off to madressah. Tidying up and mad vacuuming as friend is coming over tomorrow night and I just will NOT have time in the morning. MY BATHROOMS ARE HORRIBLY DIRTY because of all the dust from the duststorm which I admit was weeks ago and no I haven’t cleaned my house since then what are you going to do about it? and also the dust from the gardening outside. I have a listening partnership phone call tonight that should end at 9pm then more cleaning and making my dessert and oh my gosh are you all tired yet? THEN on Tuesday morning the landscape gardeners should be here to finish off the rest of the retaining wall and I have my certification conference call (luckily husband will take the kids to school) THEN I will need to get the house in a bit more order as I have a parent study group! Lunch and then pick up boys from school THEN friend over for supper and HOW DID I EVER DO THIS TO MYSELF. I am thinking a hot cup of tea and small biscuit for relaxation on Wednesday is surely in order.
Archive for 2009
I haven’t gone into the specifics of my mother’s illness and am sorry for not updating about it all sooner. The truth is that, there is nothing to report. Her tests have all come back as inconclusive.
I know that I should be concentrating on the fact that she is well now and I am by no means ungrateful. Thing is that I am still grappling with this absurd idea that 4 specialist doctors just don’t know what she had/has and cannot explain what happened. The histopathology said most likely wall of an abscess but no bacteria were cultured after 6 weeks. The head of Infectious Diseases doesn’t know what it is.
Yes, we are all happy alhamdulillah that she is well. She is not in any pain and her breathing alhamdulillah is all good. She has stopped coughing.
But.
What was it? What is it? Will it come back? How did it happen. Why did it happen? I really hate not having the answers. My mother is thankful, so very thankful that it’s all over – that nothing was found, that she is still here with us, that she can breathe without effort. I do not know why that isn’t enough for me. It should be, of course it should be. I am very thankful it’s all over, I am so blessed to know that she is ok and that she is here with us, that she can breathe without effort.
But.
What was it? What is it? Will it come back. How did it happen? Why did it happen?
